Brief Randomness

This post is to verify that I still live and breathe and have not forgotten about this blog. I just need to put up something small and worthless so that my commitment to "freeform" remains intact. I also want to remove myself from a prior commitment not to get too personal. I don't even know what that means. Certainly I do not plan on getting into the nitty-gritty (read: boring) details of my life, much like any given blogger does. But if my oppressive college classes or interactions with people lend relevance to my writing, I will write about them. I have been oscillating recently between various emotions, which is probably not healthy, but emotions are an inescapable facet of life. One can only exert so much mental effort attempting to master/control them.

Well I may as well share this little snippet. It contains some relevant insight.

Hey, have you ever felt that your laziness might just be warranted sometimes? My knee-jerk reaction when such a thought enters my mind is to consider that things could be worse, but can't anyone say that? In fact, I think one can more easily demonstrate resolve, guts, and courage when one literally has no other choice. But when things are going "OK" and you seem to have the resources to make decisions that would please those who depend on you or look up to you, yet your soul is in turmoil because you hate what you consider the excruciating exercise of the corresponding task that must be accomplished, you are much less capable of "buckling down"--the desperation level just is not there. You climb one mountain, and a volcano is now blocking your way.

I guess what I am saying is, I hate Linear Algebra.